A year ago today

Firstly - listen to "What's a man to do?" by Usher...  change the words: man - girl, he - she, boy - girl, her - him, his - her and so on so it's actually a girl referring to a guy. Now that's how I feel... (not that it matters)

A lot can change in one year... sometimes good things, sometimes bad, sometimes we don't know why, sometimes we don't care why - but the point is it's going to happen, things aren't just going to stay the same.

In the past year I've had my ups and down, I've loved and lost, I've stayed and gone, I've passed and failed and i've grown from it all. People I love have gone away and left me here to worry. I guess sometimes I'm a worry wort but at least i care. Friends have betrayed me after building up my trust. I've been stupid and selfish and taken more than i needed. I was a leader to some people and a bad example to others. I've been social and anti-social. I've opened up and I've shut down. I've made new friends and even gotten a job...

A year ago today: I was happy... I felt loved, accepted, wanted, appreciated and respected. I had: my special person, my wonderful family, my brilliant friends and my accepting youth group. 

Half way through this year: I was disconnected... I felt disliked, rejected, under-appreciated and  discarded. I had: a different someone, my loving family, my disappearing friends and my disconnected youth group.

Today: I am nostalgic but somewhat happy... I feel somewhat needed, accepted, revived, welcome. I have: fond memories, my whole family, my good-old buddies and my repairing youth group.

No one knows what their purpose in life is and right now I question the decisions I make daily. Perhaps I should take up this next challenge and move on with my life, but I just don't know... All I know is I can't turn back time, but i can try and repair my mistakes in the present & future.

Maltese Celebrations @ Church - 1 year ago today

Renewal November 2008 - I love you!!

1 Corinthians 15: 51

Listen to this secret truth: we shall not all die, but when the last trumpet sounds, we shall all be changed in an instant, as quickly as the blinking of an eye.

God Bless
Elleness

xxx