A Stitch In Time

So yesterday after many years of burying my sewing gear I decided it was about time to finish something. Searching for sometime I found this old bag I was working on, separated all the pieces and fixed them together in my head. Dragged out the old sewing machine... dusted it down, set it up and I was off. Took me much longer than expected however at the end of the day I felt great knowing I'd done something rather than how I feel today unaccomplished and nostalgic.

My boss called today, He told me that due to unpopular demand of mobile DJ's this year, I won't be getting work on New Year Eve... Oh poo... NOT!! Now it means I get to actually go out and spend time with friends this time instead of last year being stuck indoors with an embarrassing sore on my backside.

Been feeling kinda lonely without Facebook geez can't even last one week It's been meaning no contact with friends coz apparently no one knows how to use a phone anymore... but I guess i'll keep it de-activated until the end of January due to this summer unit coming up at uni *sigh*. In the mean time I really should be doing all the readings for it or organising the paperwork in my room... or redesigning my room altogether.

In other news/ Random thoughts: Watched a bunch of Youtube videos about muscly guys with dad today... yeah it was pretty random but still pretty cool.

My Birthday is in less than a month... Ahhh!!! I mean oOoOoOo...

Been looking through old photos again.. so many memories.

Started random exercises today.. perhaps there's a New Years resolution in that.

Mum actually considered the idea of getting a cat! After all these years of no pets... but the thing is now I don't really want one anymore - typical.

Revelations 3: 9

They will all know that I love You.

God Bless
Elleness
xxx

Done And Done

First off Merry Christmas to all and Happy Boxing Day I know that's not really an expression but who cares.

Over Christmas I ended up wearing that dress... Omgosh no way Elle!! You in a DRESS!?! Yeah I wore it and spun around in circles like all day my family members were like "woah a dress, geez are you three?? come on act your age... only little girls twirl around". My little cousin showed me that when she rocked up later... also reminded me not to lift up the skirt part otherwise boys can see your undies... she's so cute!

But honestly it was soooo fun spinning round and when you wear dresses it makes you feel pretty well me anyway . I told Teng Teng that one day, he was like yeah I know they make me feel the same way too. I stared at him for a second and then burst out laughing - siff you wear dresses your a macho dude but yeah it was most hilarious.

Guess what??? I successfully organised the re-enactment and most people showed up to help out, there were some hick-ups like... no costumes, but we managed to fix that with some bed sheets and Franciscan habits. Unfortunately I didn't manage to get a good picture of the group who helped out but there's always next year.

In other news/ random thoughts: The challenge from way back is still going and I haven't broken it yet.

I can't stop listening to Miama to Ibiza by Swedich House Mafia... I'm like addicted.

One of my friends has a cousin visiting from America at the moment and I CAN NOT get over the accent... totally in LOVE with it.

I'm sitting on a fresh clean pile of clothes... which I should hung up...  oh i'll get around to it.

Grey hair?? what the heck I'm not even 20...

I'm gonna crack up every time I see and automatic salt shaker, I watched this guy tring to twist it and ended up breaking it instead of just pressing the button on top.

The no presents idea this Christmas was awesome! It meant no fake "thank-you"s for unwanted gifts, however it is the thought that counts

Little Village at Christmas

Revelation 2: 19

I know what you do . I know your love, your faithfulness, your service, and your patience. I know that you are doing more now than you did at first.

God Bless
Elleness
xxx

My Mum Princess Diana

Crazy Christmas miracles: 1st - We [mum and I] actually managed to get Catpoo out of the house and to the shops in order to get him clothes... as well as other Christmas presents but yeah awesome effort on our part.

2nd - I actually agreed to buying and wearing a dress... If you know me, you'd know that that's a big deal because generally speaking I wear either daggy clothing [adj. not stylish, out of fashion, not trendy, not cool, untidy, unclean, not neat. verb. to have no style.] or jeans and T-shirt.

3rd - I called back the priest.. the one that called me the other night.. and it looks as though I may have gotten things together for this re-enactment and as far as other plans for that go, things seem to be on schedule.

Last night my family and I, had a Christmas dinner at my Godmothers place [Louise]... she also happens to be my mums best friend from high school. The funniest thing in recent times is to see the two of them together, because somehow -  it doesn't matter what topic of conversation we are on -  they manage to remember something from their school days. Last time mum and I both found out why Louise never introduced her boyfriends to mum... Because Louise knew that - unintentionally - mum would steal them (you see mum was somewhat of a babe back in the day, she's been compared many a time to the late Princess Diana - no kidding she seriously looks quite similar) What do you think??

Princess Diana

My Mother

Anyways, last nights story was about aunty Louise's fear of birds... She was saying how she's never cooked a whole chicken or a turkey and then mum piped up with.. "oh yes I remember when you had that dead bird in your desk" 

*laughing* Louise: "Oh yes talk about projectile vomit"

Mum *burst out laughing* "oh I still remember the look on your face coz I knew it was in there"

Louise: "Yeah coz you probably bloody put it in there didn't you!?!?"

Mum: "No I didn't it was (says a school friends name) I wouldn't do that to you"

Louise also still cracking up: "Oh yes, well you knew it was in there and you didn't tell me?? why was that??"

Mum : "HAHAHA I dunno, I really don't know"

Louise: "hahaha, *sigh* Oh I was so sick"

In other news/ Random thoughts: Someone sent me a txt yesterday asking if they were going crazy or if I  no longer had facebook... ironic thing is I've been calling this guy my stalker all year - So I guess it's true.

I'm getting a pair of pink, red and purple shoes for Christmas.

Visited my Nana and Pa today,  I'm noticing now with age we're getting closer and more open.

I'm gonna start sewing again so I can fix up all these oddly shaped clothes I've got.

Didn't have work this week, how awesome!!! But i'll probably be working New Years.

Had to buy a packet of smokes for my bro yesterday... when I got to the counter a feeling of complete and utter disgust and sickness washed over me. I don't think i'll ever smoke.

John 20: 29

Jesus said to him (Thomas), "Do you believe because you see me? How happy are those who believe without seeing me!"

God Bless
Elleness
xxx

Christmas Drive... and You're Gone

Never really noticed, until just this year, just how awesome it is to drive around the streets at night during Christmas. I guess in the past I didn't actually drive so all I was focusing on was the conversation in the car or the turns 'the driver' was making in order to get me home on time or safely. It could also have something to do with me wanting to get away or rather just wanting to escape my mind for the moment- that I just focused on the houses.

Take a drive sometime, with some friends or on your own, it's quite fun just to let loose and take in the Christmas spirit... Another great way to do this is to go caroling =D Yesterday was my youth groups last caroling adventure for 2010, although I was given the wrong arrival time and address I still managed to get there reasonably on time and the old people were so lovely.

Separate Note: I cried myself to sleep the other night thinking of you and yesterday you erased yourself from my life: blocked me on facebook, un-watched me on dA and who knows what else - truth be told I've been waiting for you to finally do what you've been saying for some time. As a result I have also erased you from mine, deleted your number, the pictures and soon to be all the things that remind me of you.

In other news/random thoughts: I finally visited Kara yesterday just to catch up and she's got this massive Christmas tree it's so awesome [real Pine Tree] EPIC

a priest called me last night which is slightly random, however I do know him so it's not that bad

I deactivated my facebook account because it has no use for me now

My Youtube videos have almost 2000 views collectively hehehehe link

http://www.youtube.com/user/DrDaniElleMarie

still working on getting this re-enactment together for midnight mass =/

Acts 21: 37

"May I say something to you?"

God Bless

Elleness

xxx

Bitten Off More

You know that old expression "Bitten of more than you can chew"... I'm becoming and ambassador for that saying. Honestly how many times do I have to chuck myself in the shit before I finally end up dead.

I volunteered myself, pretty much, to organise something before Christmas day without asking the appropriate people and now - under-prepared I'm trying to piece it together and gain the help off all the friends I can.

In other news, I'd like to rip out my brain and get a new one so I can stop thinking about you this challenge sucks so f**kin much or go on holidays far away and never come back so that I can start all over again. I know life is no walk in the park but it's doing my head in... perhaps that's what I need... less indoors more outdoors, less computer stuff more walks in the park but f**k me, parks make me think of you too.

Completely separate from that, some random thoughts:

My back still hurts...

I'm having a lot of fun discovering deviantART... making Catpoo thoroughly annoyed for asking too many questions

I've fallen into the copycat track again...

I've always been a stalker... I know it's bad, it's just in my nature 

Keep reading and swearing at me and demanding things if you wish, it's only your time wasted 

Nicklebutt is sleep talking again

Nathaniel is home for Christmas

I sound like my mother on the phone and more so in person everyday

Dad managed to crack us (the whole family) up within 3 minutes of being home... Legend

I've got no idea what I want for Christmas... because what I have in mind would involve changing space and time - which unfortunately for me I don't think is possible.

Luke 19: 46

"It is written in the Scriptures that God said, 'My Temple will be a house of prayer.' But you have turned it into a hideout for thieves!"

God Bless

Elleness

xxx

Like A Light Bulb

When I last left you, I said don't worry I'm not suicidal and I promise that hasn't changed and it has nothing to do with the fact I haven't posted since Wednesday.

Since then a few things have happened, life has switched on and off the happy moments, much like a light bulb... Grandma is out of hospital and still has her awesome sense of humour. Someone is having second thoughts... again. I've made some decisions and realisations, I've celebrated with friends, I've asked some questions and taken action, I've even slipped into my old copycat role - yes all in under a week!!

I spent the last few days CAROLING with my good mates from Antioch!! Each year we make more and more memories and find heaps of things to crack up about. To be honest it's been loads of fun especially saturday night and it's really taken me right back to some of my favourite times when I first joined (Antioch). As a result of this I thought I'd love to bring back some more old memories... so I asked our parish priest if we could do a re-enactment of the nativity scene at midnight mass this year- To which he replied 'YES' so yay! I'm totally looking forward to it.

My Nutty Antioch Friends =D

It's been an interesting week... hopefully i'll keep you posted on the events of the lead up to Christmas ahh so close.

P.s stop injuring yourself, damn it!

2 Corinthians 7: 8

For even if that letter of mine made you sad, I am not sorry I wrote it.

God Bless
Elleness
xxx

Only Time Will Tell

1st off... shit it hurts - but don't worry it'll get better.

Last year sometime my grandmother found out she had a quite large aneurysm in her brain. The doctors suggested that due to her age they should leave it because operating could result in death or a very slow recovery. A few months later, after completing more check ups they decided it was a better idea to operate because everything was getting worse.

So not long after, my grandmother and one other man, had this procedure - they were the first two people in Australia to use this device so in theory they where guinea pigs. The man came out of surgery in much pain and took several months to recover but has since received his pilots license and has mad a full recovery. My grandmother on the other hand came out of surgery fine and it wasn't until a few weeks later that everything all kicked in, her eyes began to play up and she felt sick and unable to do anything.

After practically a whole year of this, doctors decided it was time to correct the situation and so that was the surgery grandma had yesterday. You'll be happy to know, as was I, that she came out of surgery fine and is now in recovery. Her eyes have corrected themselves and x-rays and scans are showing that the original outcome from the first procedure is now taking place and so she should be fine from now onwards.

Granddad, Mum and Grandma [Grandmas 73rd Birthday]

The truth is time will tell, now I'm just waiting for my time to come...

p.s I've got a job interview tomorrow, I hope it goes well

John 3: 3

Jesus answered, "I am telling the truth; no one can see the Kingdom of God without being born again."

God Bless
Elleness
xxx

Say What

You know how I've been writing about all these practices I've been attending and organising and how it's made me so busy and what not... well guess what???

It all paid off yesterday... at the 'Battle of the Bands' an annual Antioch face-off in which different suburbs/ locations/ areas [in our state from our youth organisation 'Antioch'] showcase their talents in the fight to win the ultimate title as Battle Champions. There are a few awards you can win on the day... most comedic, most religious, most musical, most entertaining, most people on stage - But most importantly the overall winner and yesterday that was us!!! =D.

So proud of everyone who stuck it out with us, not only did we win but it was done on home soil. Also any group that can incorporate Pokemon, Harry Potter, Glee, The nativity scene and Hi-5 deserves a huge award and a lot of L.O.V.E!

The group practicing right before the official battle

P.s. I'm thinking & praying and Grandma is in hospital today so I hope it all goes well

Ecclesiastes 4: 9-10

Two are better than one; because they have a good reward for their labour. For if they fall, the one will lift up his fellow: but woe to him that is alone when he falleth: for he hath not another to help him up. 

God Bless

Elleness

xxx

No... Just Me Then??

All this week I've been going to practices at night for upcoming performances/events in our youth community, so I've been driving people around, organising facebook events, props and costumes. Not last night, but the night before that, my car decided it had had enough of my traveling and thought it'd be a good idea to not start after only being parked for a short while. 

I realised there's actually a trend going on... it's like the car knows i should be somewhere else or knows that I'll be in a pickle if i have to explain to someone why my car broke down in a certain area or who i was with at the time.

Aren't we supposed to be best buddies, my car and I? maybe she's becoming like my other female friends... I hope not because i enjoy our car rides... amongst other things. Anyhow she's at the mechanics now...

... My Car Peggy...

Also I've been coming home at quite late hours with all this practice, last night I got dropped home at about 12:30 am which isn't really that late, but after some msn, facebook, youtube, blogger, phone calls, dinner, and shower it was close to 3:20am and to my surprise this was the hour Nicklebutt got up for work. So both him and I were sharing the bathroom, one getting ready to leave and one getting ready to sleep.

Which brings me to my next point... when you brush your teeth... if you do... does the toothpaste stay in your mouth all pretty just like in the movies?? or are you anything like me and get it all over your face well maybe not all over but at least all around the mouth?? Yeh, I thought it might only be me, well practice makes perfect!

Have you ever noticed? how when people are in a hurry and they grab for something, they stand too far away from the object and just stretch out their arm... it'd be much easier and faster for them to just move all the way to the object and retrieve it but instead they stare at it from a distance and reach.

The sleep head bop... you know when you're watching someone fall asleep and they do the head bop. The head falls forward and when the half asleep person realises they react and lift the head slightly and this continues for a few minutes - yeah I love watching that.

Awkward goodbye silence... happens after the last joke of the night, just before everyone announces the priority of them leaving soon due to the tasks they need to complete the next day. Ahh the silence...

If you love someone, you should set them free... If you have to stalk them, they weren't really yours

Mark 1:17-18

Jesus said to them,"Come with me, and I will teach you to catch people". At once they left their nets and went with him.

God Bless

Elleness

xxx

In the dolls house

Yesterday, I was in a creative mood after working on some props for an end of year skit. So I made the decision after having waited days upon days for Catpoo to put up the Christmas decorations, that'd i'd do it myself. I asked mum for the keys to the garage and made my way outside... on the hunt for their storage location...

The best doll house ever

Upon entering the garage I found the most giant mess... no wait that's just a typical Aussie garage full of junk and not cars. Anyhow I made my way towards the back and found my old doll house inside which were the decorations. This dolls house is no ordinary play plastic thing... it's huge, when it lived in my room as a child it use to take up like half my space. It was made for my mother as a child and then revamped, given a new coat of paint and passed onto me and I can't wait for the day I get to pass it on.

The toilet with daddy long legs

This doll house is made up of two main parts: The upstairs: which looks like the floor plan of an actual house, it has individual rooms with doors, windows, carpet, working lights, a kitchen, bathroom and toilet. The downstairs: which is basically a big storage space that's great for storing toys when you're a kids and nowadays great to hold the Christmas stuff.

I decided to take the lid off the house and have a peek inside seeing as it's probably been locked in the garage for 12 years now. As I removed the roof the doll house smell filled the space around me and instantly memories came flooding back. As I looked closely I realised all the furniture was will inside, the toilet, bath, beds, desks, television, wardrobes, chair cupboard, utensils and even the piano. Not only was all the stuff inside still set up but the little dolls were still there.

The Grand Piano. bahahaha

It's funny how something that small and pretend can hold so many memories. Like the time my brothers and I recorded a scary story film inside the house with the lights switching on and off. Or the time i shoved a plastic pineapple in the plastic oven thinking it'd come out cooked. I also can't believe that after all these years not only did we keep the doll house but even some of my mothers original furniture, it's just so cool.

Grandma and Granddad Doll

Anyway I managed to put up the tree, to which Catpoo complained I wasn't doing it right, so I replied "Well guess what?? You can do it yourself if you want..." but he didn't take up the offer.

I'm looking forward to Christmas this year even though many things will be different and some people won't be around, regardless of that I'm looking forward to the family celebrations, food, exhaustion, caroling and youth activities.

Ps. It's short shorts weather in Aus.

1 Peter 2: 5

Come as living stones, and let yourselves be used in building the spiritual temple, where you  will serve as holy priests to offer spiritual and acceptable sacrifices to God through Jesus Christ.

God Bless

Elleness

xxx 

Baby you're a firework

Quick quick quick.. before the day ends... oh too bad

(by the way, this isn't supposed to rhyme) 

I can't last five seconds without kissing you, when we are alone

[It sets off fireworks in my mouth and stomach too]

I think about you when i wake up and before I go to sleep

I love the way you hold me, and the way you touch my face

I love it when you stroke my hair and look into my eyes

I love the way you hold my hand and the way you talk to me

I love your smile and your hair and the way you make me laugh

I love the way you treat me like I'm 'your girl' even though I'm not 

But most of all 'I LOVE YOU' because of who you are!!

1 Corinthians 16: 13-14

Be alert, stand firm in faith, be brave, be strong. Do all your work in love.

God Bless
Elleness
xxx

A year ago today

Firstly - listen to "What's a man to do?" by Usher...  change the words: man - girl, he - she, boy - girl, her - him, his - her and so on so it's actually a girl referring to a guy. Now that's how I feel... (not that it matters)

A lot can change in one year... sometimes good things, sometimes bad, sometimes we don't know why, sometimes we don't care why - but the point is it's going to happen, things aren't just going to stay the same.

In the past year I've had my ups and down, I've loved and lost, I've stayed and gone, I've passed and failed and i've grown from it all. People I love have gone away and left me here to worry. I guess sometimes I'm a worry wort but at least i care. Friends have betrayed me after building up my trust. I've been stupid and selfish and taken more than i needed. I was a leader to some people and a bad example to others. I've been social and anti-social. I've opened up and I've shut down. I've made new friends and even gotten a job...

A year ago today: I was happy... I felt loved, accepted, wanted, appreciated and respected. I had: my special person, my wonderful family, my brilliant friends and my accepting youth group. 

Half way through this year: I was disconnected... I felt disliked, rejected, under-appreciated and  discarded. I had: a different someone, my loving family, my disappearing friends and my disconnected youth group.

Today: I am nostalgic but somewhat happy... I feel somewhat needed, accepted, revived, welcome. I have: fond memories, my whole family, my good-old buddies and my repairing youth group.

No one knows what their purpose in life is and right now I question the decisions I make daily. Perhaps I should take up this next challenge and move on with my life, but I just don't know... All I know is I can't turn back time, but i can try and repair my mistakes in the present & future.

Maltese Celebrations @ Church - 1 year ago today

Renewal November 2008 - I love you!!

1 Corinthians 15: 51

Listen to this secret truth: we shall not all die, but when the last trumpet sounds, we shall all be changed in an instant, as quickly as the blinking of an eye.

God Bless
Elleness

xxx

Have you ever??

Have you ever lied blankly to someone?

Have you ever let someone down that means a lot to you?

Have you ever heard something you shouldn't have heard?

Have you ever wanted something you couldn't have?

Have you ever been somewhere you shouldn't have been?

Have you ever gotten the same comment twice from two different people?

Have you ever been compared to another?

Have you ever been kissed by someone, when you shouldn't have?

Have you ever been called a tease?

Have you ever been told you think to much?

Have you ever felt alone in a crowded room?

Have you ever analysed a situation beyond the point of recognition?

Have you ever cried over nothing, for no reason?

Have you ever wished you could turn back the clock?

Have you ever said "Lets just be friends"?

Have you ever had a terabyte of downloads?

Well I have... so beat that!! Booya 

Btw I got new windscreen wipers so they don't make noise anymore =P

 1 Thessalonians 4: 11-12

Make it your aim to live a quiet life, to mind your own business, and to earn your own living. In this way you will win the respect of those who are not believers, and you will not have to depend on anyone for what you need.

God Bless

Elleness

xxx

Half Way Point

For many years I thought about changing my hair and up until this year in january I hadn't even had my hair cut by a hairdresser... in fact for my whole childhood my mother cut my hair. So in January when i cut my hair i didn't go all out and drastic.. i simply went from my 'one length' long hair to something shorter with layers and a fringe.

To my surprise something as simple as that can make a big difference. Upon arrival at a venue where many of my friends were... the room that was filled with chatter, went completely silent and nearly 90% of the people in the room were staring at me. At first i was like what's up? is everyone okay... because the looks on their faces were either blank or shocked. Finally someone broke the silence and said "wow did you get a haircut it looks good" and thank goodness all the others joined in too apart from two guys. One of these continued to stare and the other said "Hello, i like your shirt! is it new?.. okay everyone lets get back to practice".

The one who kept staring and i think tried very hard to snap out of his blank stare was actually my boyfriend at the time. Not too long after that we got a moment alone and i was like "hey...sooo, what do you think?" and he was just staring again but with a slight smile. He said "You look Hot!" so i said "oh so i wasn't before, it's only hair" he was like "nooo, yeh i know that... it's just like.... yeh".   

So now for some time i've been thinking bout dying it as a change from my usual dark blonde... so as of today I'm brunette .. well at least for a little while =P we'll see what kind of reactions i'll get this time-perhaps more comments that i look like 'Bella' from 'Twilight'... 

This is now the half way mark into my preposed change.. the second half involves me painting my room again and taking down all the posters it's covered by. By the way the challenge is going well, haven't folded yet but it's early days...

My room a few months ago...

Proverbs 31:30

Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting: but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised

God Bless

Ellness

xxx