The Breakup Kit 2

So not long after my little Break-up kit was delivered to me a friend of mine got broken up with... she was in this relationship for much longer than I was and so it was hitting her with some great force.

She was not eating or drinking, crying all the time and  hardly getting any sunlight or activity. This was quite worrying and so I decided to make up my own little survival kit filled with things that I thought were helpful/ necessary for one reason or the other and so I wrote a little letter and gathered the items.

Dear Zoe,

This is your very own breakup survival kit <3

Tissues – to remind you that it’s alright to cry

Juice & water – to make sure you drink fluids

Marshmallows – to remind you that you are sweet (also they are easy to eat)

Chocolate  - because it’s always good for recovery

Skittles – to brighten your sad days

Gum – to freshen up your life and keep your energy high

Socks – to remind you that your are crazy cool and it’s fine to wear pjs all day

Bubbles – to remind you that you are a bubbly princess, who makes us smile.

Journal - to write down your thoughts and stop thinking about them

Mug – to fill with warm foods/drinks and snuggle up with on cold nights

Teddy – to hug when you feel upset, to remind you that you are loved!

The Teddy in this little kit was the kind that you can write messages on and so I got all of our mutual friends (from a singing/performance group that we are both in) to sign it and send a little message her way.

Her response was awesome!! She nearly cried on the spot and was so happy to realise just how many people she had to support her. She started eating that day and she also smiled for the first time in a few days.. so a job well done :) Thanks to all those who wrote a little something for her!!


Love and Hugs,
Danismells xx

P.s. The message in the left hand corner of the photo is the message she sent me via text the following day

The Breakup Kit

So in my last post I wrote about my break up earlier that week.

Well later that same week and very lovely mate of mine put together a 'Break-up survival kit'.

The kit was mentioned at a rehearsals and I saw it from a distance but to be honest, I was completely overwhelmed by the amount of hugs and advice I was getting from everyone that I completely forgot to  pick up this mystery box/ bag.

Upon arriving home I realised that I had forgotten it and promptly contacted my friend to find out when I could retrieve it and what was actually inside. He told me that he thought it was a stupid idea after all and didn't want to embarrass himself by giving it to me, because it had really random stuff in it. I insisted then that he at least tell me what I was missing out on and why he had chose such 'random' items to add to the bag.

Here is the contents of the kit and the reasons why these items were added...

A box of tissues to let you know that it's ok to cry

There was a compass to help you find your way when you feel lost

There was a lion to remind you to be brave

There was a torch to help you when it gets dark

And matches because let's face it matches are always useful

Binoculars to help you see far into the future

There were sweets because hey...they're sweets

A poncho just because they're awesome

and finally: A 'Hand of the King' pin/broach because you are important and Game of Thrones is cool!

Not long after the gift giving, this friend admitted that he has had feelings for me since we first met (at which point I had just started dating the guy which the last post was about) but that he knows I do not feel the same way. This has not changed our friendship in the slightest... he is surely my best male friend and I would not exchange him for any other. It's also nice when you get a stream of compliments from a male friend... Don't you think?!  (Gosh I have the biggest head this year!!! )

Also also also, this survival kit is a lifelong one so when things run out they get replaced... woo hoo, lollies forever!!! :)

Love and Hugs xx

Dani

P.s. life after a break-up isn't so bad... it gets better... things get easier

Treasure Chest

1 year ago a boy stole my heart strings... 

I fell in love with him, like I've never been in love before...

On Monday night we broke up...

He never read this because it was a gift for our 1 year... but

 perhaps you will read it and then you'll know how I felt and why I loved this boy

 I hope you also feel terribly sick at how disgustingly cheesy it is

This is a chest of 'loves'. It has been made by a heart that holds you dearly. These 'loves' are a combination of physical features, mannerisms, circumstantial and trivial situations that I love about you. The hope is that these 'loves' will make you smile, laugh, wonder and understand how I feel about you. They should also make you feel as special as you make me feel

[In no particular order]

• Your random and yet funny OCD habits

• I love it when we have book/ story description time, you make me interested in reading... Which is always a good thing

• I love that you never belittle me even when I'm acting like a child

• I love that we casually end up talking about death a lot, I mean I love that it's always so trivial

• I love that you like gossip so much, gives me someone to share stuff with

• I love it when you refer to me as your girlfriend

• I love that the backseat of your car is always trashed, in fact your car is generally nearly always trashed

• I love it when you tell me things that you like about me

• I love it when you tell me how you feel about us.

• I loved the time you said "Sometimes I screw it up because I'm an idiot. But I know that it'll be ok... I dont know why I know that... But I just kinda do."

• I love doing puzzles with you, coz we're so cool like that

• I love that you must tell everyone some random fact about something if they get it wrong, regardless of if they care or not

• I love that you know the movie 'it's a wonderful life' because it's one of my favourites

• I love it how you tell me some things twice or three times and although I've heard it before, the story never changes and you are still just as excited

• I love that you make the effort not to be awkward around my friends

• I love that you've made an effort to get to know my family, especially coming to important family events

• I love when you make ridiculous faces, it makes me smile

• I love your tired sleepy self that mumbles off into random thoughts

• I love your deep "I've been overusing my voice" voice

• I love that for some unknown reason I don't mind kissing your beer lips

• I love that you hardly ever differ from your apple juice with dinner

• I love that on pub nights you always ask me first of I'd like a drink

• I love that you sometimes randomly rest your arm on you head

• I love resting my forehead on yours

• I love that you are smart

• I love that you are handsome

• I love that you're not obsessed with the latest trends

• I love that you are into older music and movies, classics!

• I love that you're not into material things, especially because to me you seem rich (just coz of where I was brought up)

• I love that you play the banjo- it's so different

• I love that you're not afraid to say what you think

• I loved it when you said "You are very prettyful...that's like pretty and beautiful and you are 'very' both of those things" it was really sweet! ;P

• I loved your birthday text to me in '13

• I love that you can turn my sad crying face into a happy smiley one

• I Love that when I look at you all I can think is 'I love you'

• I love that you share Sweeney stuff with me even though you shouldn't

• I love that you have an outie

• I love the froggy you gave and the fact that you remembered

• I love the necklace... Even though it's falling to pieces I wear it every day

• I love your eye lashes

• I love your lips even when they are super dry and you bite them

• I love your show makeup and the fact that eye liner looks good on you

• I love your hugs

• I love your kisses

• I love when you walk me to my car

• I love that you use 3 straws

• I love that you don't have tattoos

• I love you because you brighten my day

• I love it when you can't shut my car door properly so I smile most of the way home

• I love that you don't give up when I say nothing's wrong

• I love that you get on with my brothers

• I love that you talk to children like they are adults

• I love that your hands are nearly always cold

• I love how soft your hands are

• I love your pretty nails too

• I love that you missed me when I was in Japan (or at least you told people you did)

• I love that I still get excited when I see you and I'm not expecting to see you

• I love your jawline

• I love your fingers

• I love that I didn't know it was a date until you told Josh and even then I didn't believe it until you told the police

• I love your beautiful straight teeth

• I love that you had braces just like me and also that you had your wisdom teeth removed

• I love that you still talk to me even though I love listening to R & B music

• I love that we have our own vocabulary

• I love that you introduce me to the things you love

• I love that you try to explain your games to me even though I'll probably never understand them

• I love that you enjoyed sitting and playing Donkey Kong with me

• I love watching movies and/or television with you and just casually hanging out

• I love spending time with you and your family

• I love that you don't burp in my face, such a gentleman

• I love that we have to stop to breathe, more so when you have to, because that's cuter (when we have colds)

• I love to poke and tickle you until you react

• I love that you 'went there' when you said *poke* *hug* *kiss* for the first time

• I love teddy bears, not! I do love you though

• I love the little spot on the left hand side of your nose

• I love those moments when everything gets a little intense and intimate

• I love that you have never pressured me into doing anything I didn't want to do

• I love that you always encourage me when I'm down

• I love that you believe in my abilities

• I love that you ignore my shocking spelling and tolerate my continuous typos

• I love that you have taught me about self control.

• I love that you know the Men in black thing 'is that better' and every time it makes me smile

• I love the way you smell, especially just after a shower

• I love your gorgeous smile!!

• I love your cute dimples when you're really excited about something and you can hardly keep it in

• I love you because you make-a-me smile

• I love the way you wrap your arms around me

• I love the way you haven't gone crazy from all of my crazy... Especially on our 1st date

• I love when you say I'm beautiful instead of just pretty or hot. (Although I also sometimes like it when you say those things too)

• I love the way that you stare at me and I have no idea what you are thinking, if anything at all

• I love your dad jokes!! No seriously you crack me up

• I love the way that you find so many ways to say 'I love you' especially because they all seem different

• I love that you don't expect me to be anyone else, or to change myself to suit what you'd like

• I love your fantastic deep singing voice (also just hearing your voice in general)

• I love the way that you dress and act chilled but also how you dress up when we go out

• I love your stories, jokes and random facts that seem to be never ending

• I love the way you speak to me (with respect and interest)

• I love the way you kiss my neck, regardless of my squirming about

• I know i've said it before but I love your eyes! They are seriously amazing and I'm so glad to be the one who gets to look at them all the time.

• I love the way you place your hands on my hips or my sides and come in for a hug.

• I love it when you hug or kiss me when I'm busy doing something or talking to someone

• I love it when you tickle me and make giggle but I'll probably never admit that in person.

• I love how you say I'm pretty when I feel or look like crap or a massive dag (but let's face it, I'm pretty daggy)

• I love that you chose raggy dolls: totally reminds you of me doesn't it?!

• I love that you drive us around when I come over.

• I love that I feel no need to be fake or untrue to myself when I'm around you.

• I love the amazing colour of your eyes.

• I love that you're humorous and you make me laugh

• I love that you can make me laugh without saying a word

• I love that you are honest and would rather say nothing than tell a lie

• I love that you don't want to make me sick when you are sick.

• I love holding your hand

• I love it when you sing Roy Orbison

• I love that certain songs remind me of you and whenever I hear them I can't help but smile and sing along

• I love that when I think about you I have a dorky smile on my face

• I love that I'm happier since I've been with you

• I love your cute angry/ frustrated face at trivia, especially when people don't believe you

• I love that when I'm sick and gross you still kiss and hug me

• I love that you still love me when I dress like a dag

• I love that you stopped your video game to say goodbye

• I love that you were all huggie when I had to leave your family do. Maybe it was the drinks or maybe it was the general excitement but either way

• I love your cute almost drunk ramblings and how affectionate it makes you

• I love it when you do things for me; like see a show, even when you don't want to

• I love your self- confidence and high self esteem

• I love the way you are so comfortable with playing guitar or banjo and singing in front of me

• I love that you're not afraid to act the fool

• I love your love of musical theatre despite your gender

• I love your über nerdiness! Which is often contained until I walk in on you or if something new has just come out

• I love it when you say something that catches me by surprise

• I loved your reaction to your 20th birthday gift last year

• I love that you stole my heart strings before we were dating and that you still hold them now

• I love that whenever I see you or think about you I can't help but smile

• I fall more and more in love with you every time we meet

• I love the way you point out awkward things by talking them through as they are happening

• I love the way you like my sticky outy ears and pointy nose

• I love your sexy, handsome, attractive, gorgeous YAWN FACES

• (In the least creepy way possible) I love the fact that I could sit and look at you all day and not get bored

• I love that your compliments that somehow end up backwards.. Or far too explained

• I love the genuineness of your 'I love you's'

• I love it when you randomly start singing and then get stuck on a tangent

• I love it when you sing a song about loving someone and you look at me like 'this is for you'

• I love it when you kiss my forehead, It feels like i'm the only person that matters

• I love it when you whisper in my ear. Both when you actually whisper I love you and when you pretend coz you know I like it... It makes me smile anyway

• I love it when you play with my hair and when I can play with yours

• I love the fact that we always manage to talk about your beard

• I love the way you always get excited when I bring you food

• I love it when you get stuck talking about a life experience or something that you'd like to happen in the future

• I love the times we can chill with ALL of your family

• I love the way you say naww after I say something sweet to you, but more so when you say something sweet to me and you still say naww ;P

• I love holding your hand when watching movies or walking somewhere or just in general

• I love the way you must google, wiki, imdb everything to make sure you were correct

• I love the way you suggest I should go home, even though neither of us want me to go home

• I love our late night text messages that always have me smiling and giggling ;P

• I love the way that you know I'm completely insane but you wouldn't have it any other way ;P

I love that every time I look at you or think about you, I can think of another one of these loves <3

I love you more than you will ever know or be able to fathom... 

xx

Danismells

Miss miss miss

So i've been massively MIA lately... but hey, i'm here now.. right?!

I completed my first uni degree (B of Music) and have since moved on to my next venture [just had a moment of woah venture is like adventure without the ad... i'll stop now] in life... that of teaching.

So at the beginning of the year whilst waiting for paperwork to be corrected/ updated... I tried to figure out what to do with my life. 

To fill in some time and see if my love of theatre was still there I joined a musical society and boy oh boy was my love still there. This year I've been in two productions with this society and I've just auditioned for the next one... fingers crossed i'll get into this small cast of 23 (6 of which are dancers and I am not).

Midway through the year I thought hey I can't do nothing forever, as much as I like having time to myself... it's pretty ridiculous to not have a job and just be wasting my time away at 21. SOOOOOO I set off to uni again, teaching this time (masters) and I loved  it... dead set, super content and so happy to actually be using my noggin again.

To top that, after months of job searching, when I returned to uni I was hired by a tutoring company and so I began tutoring on the side. Tutoring is pretty darn fulfilling, not only do I feel awesome for teaching people who don't know quite how to do things but i'm also teaching/learning myself again all the things that I once knew but had pretty much forgotten (Yay for maths, I seriously love it... what is wrong with me).

Anywho at present I'm on prac or Practicum as it should be called, I'm with Kindy and they are pretty much super cute. Much to the dismay of sooo many, I'm not really enjoying myself... I don't think I really want to do this as a career, especially not for the rest of my life but hey I could do casual while i'm figuring out what should be next.

Today in school we had to have our photos taken for part of a Christmas prep thing and so naturally I posed with a great big smile... later on in the day I was given a copy of my photos and some of the students had a bit of a peak, they were all really surprised saying "hey miss look you are smiling!!" my first thought was yeah, what, of course i'm smiling. Then they insisted that I smile like the picture and so I did and they seemed super shocked/excited... It was in that moment that I realised I'm not smiling in class and so the children don't even know what my happy face looks like - is that not heart wrenching?!

Normally I'm so happy and smiley that people are annoyed but in this case I hadn't shown any of my good/happy smiles.  :(

But that's about all I can spit up today... Also I can't wait for the next post.. i've got some news to fill you in on AND obviously whether or not I got into the new production :)

Dani pants xx

The Girls

As promised, a post for the girls about the girls :P
again in no particular order

The Photographer

Julie was there for the entire trip, documenting every single moment on camera of course, from the Popes arrival to our games nights, nothing was to be missed... not even us sleeping pilgrims. When she wasn't snapping shots, she could be found talking to giggle gutz or praying somewhere in deep concentration. This girl is someone who sees the world through a different lens, she could find a way to capture your soul and preserve it in all it's glory. She's a bubbly, enthusiastic but sometime contemplative person and I couldn't have thought of a better friend to make the trip with.

The Loud Girl

Melinda, oh where do I start with this one, she knows everyone and can retain basically every bit of information that's mentioned about anyone else. I've named her the loud girl because she is exactly that.. if ever you become lost with her, it wouldn't be long before you were found... all she has to do was open her mouth and we all know where she is. Not only was she loud when awake but also when asleep *snores* granted she did have a terrible cold that loud night but still, who knew! She's not all about the talking and the attention, she's actually a wonderful listener and very good with advice, she's the first to notice when something is not quite right and is there with a joke or story to correct your sadness.

The Vegetarian

Jacinta was in someways the life of the party, sometimes intentionally, most times by default. The default attention came on the second week of the trip... if you've been to Spain before you'd know that their main diet consists of meat and bread, bread and meat and some more bread, by the second week poor Jacinta was running low on energy, iron and just about anything you can think of.. so after a few fainting spells she was indeed the centre of attention. Apart from this she is a simply hilarious woman, who could honestly talk to you for several hours about nothing or anything or whatever you please and when this time is up you'll feel well informed about the world and it's many wonders. To this day I can't help but smile when I see her cheery face even though she hates photos and her pterodactyl face always makes me laugh.

The Musician

Mary Gale, the violinist, this girl is simply as quiet as a mouse and has a heart of GOLD... literally and angel in my eyes and her beautiful music filled our trip with song and dance, particularly the airport terminal jigs! This lovely girl is in fact on the road to the sisterhood.. leaving for the US very soon!

The Wonderer

Mary E, the leader of my group and yet the last to arrive at every destination. It was her first time overseas and so it was understandable that she simply felt the need to stop every 5 seconds and take a picture of the surroundings. Another quite one to add to the bunch, but could pack a punch of authority when needed. She's became a sister and a friend to us al by the end of the trip and her voice often filled the chapels with song.

The Love-Bird (1)

Shelby, the other half of the love birds, a simply gorgeous girl.. no kidding I don't think she ever had a hair out of place and she has the most lovely skin coughsuperjealouscough. This girl was on the lookout for everyone and anyone at all times, she was all about getting to things on time with the right clothing and supplies and with enough time to return back before the next activity but not at all in a controlling way. When she wasn't helping one of us out she could be found with her boyfriend, being cute and stuff.

The Face-puller

Clair is a girl of very many faces, for someone that was home-schooled she sure knows knows how to make a group crack up, also for someone so gentle and seemingly quiet you don't every really expect her random photo-bombing. This girl could also be known as the lucky one, out of all the very many people who came to Madrid for WYD and out of those many thousands who are from Australia and even Sydney- she managed to score the most awesome deal... A meal with THE POPE as in the big guy, yes Le Pope, how lucky?!?!?! But honestly they couldn't have chosen a more humble, kind hearted and loving person to represent us all!

The Sister in Christ

Sister Rachel, ohh she is so sweet and believe it or not, really down to earth. I'm pretty sure she surprised a lot of us with how in-tune and up-to-date she was with everything that was happening with us the "youth" (as i'm writing this and re-reading it I keep making the " " gesture with my hands- i'm so weird ). So after my breakdown @ the Vatican, she was there to comfort me with many words of reassurance and wisdom, that set me at rest in the craziness of it all. Our bus rides and conversations of marriage and the sisterhood have not been forgotten and will not for a great deal of time.

The Quiet Girl

Hazel was probably one of the quietest on the trip, I often forgot she was there until she popped up in photos or in the kitchen in the morning for breakfast. If ever she spoke it was only ever a nice comment or a short and sweet line of wisdom drawn from who knows where. Indeed she is a very kind and open person, who probably wouldn't mind listening to you and never shutting you up.

The Mum

Chrissy, our second mother and when I say this, i'm not kidding in the slightest, she cared for us as any mother would.. as though we were all her 1st borns. She has a laugh that could tear down a building and bring down a house, in the nicest way possible, honestly you could hear her laughter for miles if you needed to... and if you didn't, well i'm sorry but you'd still be hearing it. This lovely woman has the heart of a thousand and would never leave you in the dark, or cold, or out of the loop if it was in her power.

The Lost Girl

Kate is our little lost girl, we met her basically at the end of our journey and although the time spent together was not long, we adopted her as though she were family. Kate is a cute, fun, giggly girl from England who was left out in the heat after we were all sent away from the final masses of WYD. We took her in with her brother and a few friends and gave them a home in our accommodation, spent the evening playing games and sleeping on the floor.


So that's the girls... only took me like 1 yr to write this brief reflection... good job Elle! :P